My Critical Thoughts

"Kau kenapa?"
"Takde apa."

Padahal dalam hati..

Umur dah 25 ni memang rasa something wrong bila attend kenduri kahwin member.

Yelah, member sebaya kan..

Memanglah tu rezeki dorang..

Tapi tulah, rasa down. Nak kahwin, parents tak bagi, awal lagi. Boyfriend pun tak mampu lagi nak masuk meminang. Jadi, kita duduk jelah diam-diam.

I am sad, very sad. Mungkin period ni buat emosi tak stabil.

I'm having a fight with my boyfriend because I've made him mad for not telling what I feel inside, for keep hiding things. I know its my fault. But i think he should not forget what we've been discussed in the morning, dia macam "weh baru pagi tadi kot discuss, takkan dah lupa" I know I am so keras kepala, so ego, but he should know how to control his own emotions too. Aren't men are better in controlling their emotion than women?

I know all of this is my fault but ya i know i keep put the blame on him. Whatever, self.
I just not in the good state now.

I hate myself.